A Handful Of Light

A handful of light

Some days that's all I have to hold back the swallowing dark.
I clutch it tight, pray it's enough as my world tilts
and slides underfoot.

The ice is thin.
It splinters and cracks.
Long lost frozen things, many winters buried,
thaw to life again.

I'm told it's a good thing.
Embrace the fall.
Let it all give way.
Have faith someone will catch me.

I'm faithless.
There is no-one to catch me.
Those I love are standing on their own too thin places.
I can't break apart.
I need to hold together and bear the weight.

My handful of light -
It's a gift given in the dark places when all other lights go out.
It fills the hollow places in me,
cuts through the night,
burns away fear.