Thinking out loud

I still don't know what to say. You said it's not my fault but it doesn't feel that way. I knew coming to see you would be a risk but maybe I didn't think carefully enough about the consequences for both of us. When I asked you told me you were happy most of the time. If I've pulled you away from that - I'm sorry. If we were both free things would be different  - but we're not and maybe head needs to win over heart right now. Time to write is short at the moment but I want you to know that I will always be here for you - as a friend if that's all that's possible right now - and if you were happy last week because of that then I think that's ok. You're allowed to be happy when a friend visits aren't you?